I have decided it's better to work with short-term goals that are realistic than the end goal. When I focus on the final product, I get discouraged easily when I hit a bump. My current goal is to lose one clothing size by New Years Eve. I tried having a workout partner, but he's not reliable. It did give me the kickstart to do it on my own. I don't need anyone else. I got up, fixed a Herbalife shake and went to the gym. After the gym I went and bought a NutriBullet at BedBathandBeyond using a coupon. I then went to Kroger and loaded up on frozen fruit, kale, spinach, chia seed, and flax seed. I have been wanting to have a way to get those nutrients from greens in my shakes and my magic bullet wasn't cutting it. I have used it twice already and LOVE it. It's blends everything so smooth and I'm able to put kale and spinach in my smoothies and don't taste them.
Today I read a really good article with some other superfoods to try. I can't wait to see if this helps boost my weight loss.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Open letter to Kohl's, Macy's, JCPenney, and Dillard's
I have not gotten new blue jeans in over 2 years. My last new suit is 4 years old. I bought a new dress at walmart on clearance in August, but before that it was last year. I may have bought 4 new shirts this year. Why? It seems to me that designers think that a plus size woman must be old, or at least have the fashion of someone 60+. I am 34 years old and want to dress like it. I'm single and like to have fun. My clothes should reflect my personality. I also have a very curvy figure. Some might say I have a ba-dunk-a-dunk. I often have to go up 1 to 2 sizes in pants for them to fit my booty. The problem with that is that it leaves a HUGE gap in the waist band and the pants won't stay up. It's awful.
I am going to a singles conference with 200 other singles from my faith in Austin, TX this weekend. Last Friday I decided to go shopping to find a cute shirt to wear (since I have lost hope in finding pants that actually fit).
First I went to Kohl's (it's close to my house). I was looking around the 12 racks they have in the plus size "section" and everything looked frumpy or plaid or had horizontal stripes (I'm fat, I don't need my clothes to emphasize it! Why can't designers make plus size clothes with vertical stripes? seriously! It shouldn't be hard). Everything was just plain and old looking. There was lots of cute stuff in the juniors & misses sections, but size 18s can't dress cute, I guess.
I then drove across town to the mall and started at Macy's. I usually have decent luck there. I looked around and found a cute dress to maybe wear for New Year's Eve, but it was too dressy to wear for my event. I kept looking and found solids, 80s florals, more solids, horizontal stripes, more solids. It was depressing. While walking through the store to leave I saw lots of cute things, but like at Kohl's, nothing for the "fat" people.
My next stop was JCPenney. I have also had decent luck here in the past (at other locations, not this one). The Plus Size section had moved and was smaller. It was more of the same, solids and elderly looking patterns. I know they have cute stuff in other stores, why not this one? It's in a college town, lots of young people shop there, so why can't the young plus size shoppers find fashionable clothes?
I decided to try Dillard's, even though I usually can't find anything there. I went to the plus size section, which had doubled in size (though I think they just put more space between the racks and it didn't actually have more product). As usual, everything looked old. The dresses looked to be like 50-something mother-of-the-bride polyester (which was a nice change, I went there a couple years ago and they had no dresses, and after complaining to corporate was told they pulled all plus size dresses from that store - apparently fat people shouldn't wear dresses). Dillard's was more of the same, styles that looked appropriate for someone over 65 and not a 34 year old single. They did have some fashionable blue jeans, which was a change, but they wouldn't fit my "curves."
As I walked to my car I almost started crying. Why do the buyers for these stores think that fat people can't be fashionable? I know some designers don't make clothes for plus sizes, but lots do, and they are fashionable. I have been to other locations of these stores and don't have a problem, but every time I shop in my town I leave depressed. I shouldn't have to drive 30 min to an hour to a different location for find clothes. Why don't they have cute stuff here?
In a last ditch effort before stores closed for the night, I decided to stop at TJMaxx. I walked to the 1 rack of plus sizes and started looking. I found a super cute Michael Kors top and decided to try it on. I went ahead and grabbed two sizes just in case. I walked around to the other side of the rack and decided to see if there were pants. There weren't many in my size, but I did find 1 cute pair (also Michael Kors). As I was walking to the fitting room, I passed by the end cap and saw a cute giraffe print skirt. I picked it up and looked and guess what? It was Michael Kors. I took all 4 items to the fitting room. The pants actually fit!! They made my butt look good. There was no back gap! They were a little long, so the length needs to be tailored, but they fit my booty and waist. I was ecstatic! I then tried the top and the smaller one fit wonderfully. Then came the skirt. I loved it! it was super cute and a modest length. Thank you Thank you Thank you Michael Kors for designing for the curvy plus size woman!!!! Thank you Thank you Thank you TJ Maxx for selling his designs!
I know for a fact that both Macy's and Dillard's carry Michael Kors in "normal" sizes, but why not plus size? I know they probably do in some stores, but they weren't in my local store. Why? I live in a town of 125K people, 2 universities, 1 community college, and is 30 miles from 2 major metropolitan cities. We aren't small. We deserve to dress cute just as much as people in other cities. The designers make the clothes, but you won't sell them to me without me having to drive 30+ miles each way and pay tolls. I deserve to look cute! I shouldn't have to block a half day to travel to shop when there is a store 5 miles from my home. Something needs to change!
I am going to a singles conference with 200 other singles from my faith in Austin, TX this weekend. Last Friday I decided to go shopping to find a cute shirt to wear (since I have lost hope in finding pants that actually fit).
First I went to Kohl's (it's close to my house). I was looking around the 12 racks they have in the plus size "section" and everything looked frumpy or plaid or had horizontal stripes (I'm fat, I don't need my clothes to emphasize it! Why can't designers make plus size clothes with vertical stripes? seriously! It shouldn't be hard). Everything was just plain and old looking. There was lots of cute stuff in the juniors & misses sections, but size 18s can't dress cute, I guess.
I then drove across town to the mall and started at Macy's. I usually have decent luck there. I looked around and found a cute dress to maybe wear for New Year's Eve, but it was too dressy to wear for my event. I kept looking and found solids, 80s florals, more solids, horizontal stripes, more solids. It was depressing. While walking through the store to leave I saw lots of cute things, but like at Kohl's, nothing for the "fat" people.
My next stop was JCPenney. I have also had decent luck here in the past (at other locations, not this one). The Plus Size section had moved and was smaller. It was more of the same, solids and elderly looking patterns. I know they have cute stuff in other stores, why not this one? It's in a college town, lots of young people shop there, so why can't the young plus size shoppers find fashionable clothes?
I decided to try Dillard's, even though I usually can't find anything there. I went to the plus size section, which had doubled in size (though I think they just put more space between the racks and it didn't actually have more product). As usual, everything looked old. The dresses looked to be like 50-something mother-of-the-bride polyester (which was a nice change, I went there a couple years ago and they had no dresses, and after complaining to corporate was told they pulled all plus size dresses from that store - apparently fat people shouldn't wear dresses). Dillard's was more of the same, styles that looked appropriate for someone over 65 and not a 34 year old single. They did have some fashionable blue jeans, which was a change, but they wouldn't fit my "curves."
As I walked to my car I almost started crying. Why do the buyers for these stores think that fat people can't be fashionable? I know some designers don't make clothes for plus sizes, but lots do, and they are fashionable. I have been to other locations of these stores and don't have a problem, but every time I shop in my town I leave depressed. I shouldn't have to drive 30 min to an hour to a different location for find clothes. Why don't they have cute stuff here?
In a last ditch effort before stores closed for the night, I decided to stop at TJMaxx. I walked to the 1 rack of plus sizes and started looking. I found a super cute Michael Kors top and decided to try it on. I went ahead and grabbed two sizes just in case. I walked around to the other side of the rack and decided to see if there were pants. There weren't many in my size, but I did find 1 cute pair (also Michael Kors). As I was walking to the fitting room, I passed by the end cap and saw a cute giraffe print skirt. I picked it up and looked and guess what? It was Michael Kors. I took all 4 items to the fitting room. The pants actually fit!! They made my butt look good. There was no back gap! They were a little long, so the length needs to be tailored, but they fit my booty and waist. I was ecstatic! I then tried the top and the smaller one fit wonderfully. Then came the skirt. I loved it! it was super cute and a modest length. Thank you Thank you Thank you Michael Kors for designing for the curvy plus size woman!!!! Thank you Thank you Thank you TJ Maxx for selling his designs!
I know for a fact that both Macy's and Dillard's carry Michael Kors in "normal" sizes, but why not plus size? I know they probably do in some stores, but they weren't in my local store. Why? I live in a town of 125K people, 2 universities, 1 community college, and is 30 miles from 2 major metropolitan cities. We aren't small. We deserve to dress cute just as much as people in other cities. The designers make the clothes, but you won't sell them to me without me having to drive 30+ miles each way and pay tolls. I deserve to look cute! I shouldn't have to block a half day to travel to shop when there is a store 5 miles from my home. Something needs to change!
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
So clearly
So clearly I failed. I'm fatter. The last few months have been pretty self destructive for me. I did not do myself a favor by spreading myself to thin. I thought I was just keeping myself busy. My kids and I have been consumed with football and soccer, which sounds healthy, right? Well, it didn't leave time for cooking (and sometimes cleaning).
I feel awful about myself. Lots of self loathing going on over here.
My options...dwell or move forward. I'm choosing to move forward.
I feel awful about myself. Lots of self loathing going on over here.
My options...dwell or move forward. I'm choosing to move forward.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
67 days...
My friend commented on my facebook wall today. All it said was "67 days". I had many emotions about that number: shock, frustration, sadness, and motivation. What had happened? We planned a trip to Mexico in August. It was meant as a goal trip to work on ourselves and have a treat at the end. If all had gone right I would have been walking the beach in a bikini (which has been stored under my bed for the past 5 years). As it stands now, I have lost around 10 lbs. That's not enough to get me where I wanted to be in 67 days. Where did the time go? What have I been doing? How did I lose my focus? I vow, here and now, to re focus myself. Many things have been going on in my life to put exercising on the back burner, but no more. I have to focus on me. I can't come 2nd, or 3rd, or 4th anymore.
I WILL stop looking at those next 67 days with upset and look at it with motivation. I will still hope for a bikini. I won't be upset if it doesn't happen, as long as I gave it my best effort. I want to be healthy. In shape. Ready for whatever is about to be thrown at me.
I WILL stop looking at those next 67 days with upset and look at it with motivation. I will still hope for a bikini. I won't be upset if it doesn't happen, as long as I gave it my best effort. I want to be healthy. In shape. Ready for whatever is about to be thrown at me.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Slacking
I have really been slacking lately. Between having bad days, being super busy, and asthma issues. I'm really not happy about it. I have a goal trip. Basically my goal is to lose 10 pounds per month until my trip in August. That would mean a total of 50 pounds and I would be able to wear all my summer clothes that I haven't worn since 2009. I know I can do it if I make the time and stay focused. I am doing the Les Mills Pump program. It has me doing weight routines & cardio 3 days a week, cardio 2 days per week and 2 rest days built in. I have wanted to do something more than just walking on a treadmill or elliptical machine in the gym. Last night I decided to fire up my wii and play a few games. What started as dancing to a few songs on the Black-Eyed Peas Experience turned into a few more songs on the Michael Jackson Experience and a 25 min workout routine on Just Dance 4. In total I was "dancing" for over an hour. It was really fun and I got a great workout. I was able to get my heart rate up and had to turn on the fan to cool me off. I think my dogs thought I was crazy. lol. When I started I had walked less than 2000 steps for the day. When I finished I was up over 8000 (my daily goal). 2000 steps equals one mile. I'm so glad I figured out a fun way to get in my cardio. I'm also glad I live alone and my dogs can't talk or laugh at me.
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